Today was the first day of classes, so far so good, and tomorrow I don't have class till 250 so I am going to get some much needed work done on my articles. I already have three articles to do this week, one due on thursday so I gotta work on that. I know its only one day in but so far things are looking a bit brighter, I have been hanging out with Ruby alot at her apartment, or at least two days so far I have been hanging there but its alot of fun lol. I want that apartment so bad, its on easton ave. and its so damn awesome.
A follow up to my last posting, which some people said I probably should've taken down but I think I have let the feelings in that post go and probably for the best and I will leave it at that.
So today was Barack Obama's inauguration and I missed it. I know most people would be shocked that I didn't watch it but something inside me just didn't have my heart in it to watch the first black president get inaugurated. It wasn't like I didn't care because today was an incredibly important day in history but my world wasn't going to stop or change because Obama is our President. I think in that lies the downfall of our society, that these huge expectations are really what shape us as people. Only we really can shape ourselves. Look I'm not by any means conservative nor am I liberal, hence being independent, but Barack Obama is not going to shape the lives of the 300 million legal citizens in this country and the fact is people have to stop expecting others to do there work for them and help them continue on in life. I am not knocking our newest President, I hope he does a great job and proves everyone wrong on what might happen while he is in office but people gotta start taking control of their own destiny not leaving up to others and their government to dig them out of holes or wedge them out of tight spots. But what do I know, I'm still in college.
Off to bed, PS. a good mix of music for some odd reason- Girl Talks- Feed the Animals album and Black Sabbath- Supernaut, ballin!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Mistakes We Knew We Were Making
So I go back to school on Monday, I know I made that abundantly clear in my last entry but now its really setting in and it sucks. Maybe I'm over exaggerating a bit because I have alot to look forward to this semester and some new opportunities I hopefully will take. But some things seem to be left undone or maybe just left complicated.
I have stressed my desire to some people to just date again which I have in the most part been actively pursuing for like four years now lol. Needless to say it has not been successful, I think mostly on my own misguided thought processes and my emotions getting the better of me. But I am currently trying to pursue possibly dating a girl at school if things go according to plan and I just mmmm I don't know, ask the girl out. But something recently has cropped up that is really irking me and not in a dismal way but a confusing way.
I got to see one of my good friends over break, someone who I think the most of and probably would be lost if I didn't have her to listen to me from time to time. With us both being in college we only talk on occasion but when we do get to talk or meet up again everything just picks up like old times. After saying we would hang out over our winter break we finally got to do so at the tail end and it was great, we spent the whole day just hanging out talking our heads off and just enjoying eachothers company. The thing is it became clear to me that I started to muster up old feelings that I had for her dating back to freshman year of high school. Now I had gotten over those feelings and had just been best friends with her from sophomore year on but listening to both our problems, talking about our interests and just how much we both enjoy our company really got me thinking that I could possibly get myself together and maybe ask her out one day. I wouldn't be expecting results in all honesty, it would just be a test to see if something like this could work. If at the end of the day we did go out even if it was just once and it didn't work, I could easily move on in the comfort of knowing that she is still my best friend.
Even some of my friends who know my long standing history with this girl know that I never deep down let my feelings for her go away and they even welcomed the idea (or at least they said it, doesn't mean they meant it) that maybe we should date one day. It's kind of left me completely confused. I would rather not talk to her about this situation only because I wouldn't want to strain our already solid friendship as being just best mates (how English of me). I think realistically I need to just re-examine the situation. I plan to continue to try and meet girls at school and I can't let something like this necessarily get in the way. I am not going to let opportunities fly past me based on a what if scenario that could possibly not happen, even though I would welcome the opportunity with open arms. But, as I so frequently say anymore, I digress.
I've been writing more and more now and I think I got some good solid editorials waiting in the wings for the targum this semester. I'm gonna try and make this blog more frequent and maybe jazz it up a bit with some pictures and bumper stickers and shit. Anywho I close with giving a list of the top ten most played songs on my Ipod this week:
1) Mott the Hoople- Walking With A Mountain
2) Spoon- Don't Make Me A Target
3) MGMT- Time to Pretend
4) MIA- Bird Flu
5) The Zombies- This Will Be Our Year
6) Paul McCartney- All Things Must Pass (George Harrison cover)
7) ELO- Showdown
8) The Move- Fire Brigade
9) Rilo Kiley- Portions for Foxes
10) Oasis- Don't Look Back in Anger
I have stressed my desire to some people to just date again which I have in the most part been actively pursuing for like four years now lol. Needless to say it has not been successful, I think mostly on my own misguided thought processes and my emotions getting the better of me. But I am currently trying to pursue possibly dating a girl at school if things go according to plan and I just mmmm I don't know, ask the girl out. But something recently has cropped up that is really irking me and not in a dismal way but a confusing way.
I got to see one of my good friends over break, someone who I think the most of and probably would be lost if I didn't have her to listen to me from time to time. With us both being in college we only talk on occasion but when we do get to talk or meet up again everything just picks up like old times. After saying we would hang out over our winter break we finally got to do so at the tail end and it was great, we spent the whole day just hanging out talking our heads off and just enjoying eachothers company. The thing is it became clear to me that I started to muster up old feelings that I had for her dating back to freshman year of high school. Now I had gotten over those feelings and had just been best friends with her from sophomore year on but listening to both our problems, talking about our interests and just how much we both enjoy our company really got me thinking that I could possibly get myself together and maybe ask her out one day. I wouldn't be expecting results in all honesty, it would just be a test to see if something like this could work. If at the end of the day we did go out even if it was just once and it didn't work, I could easily move on in the comfort of knowing that she is still my best friend.
Even some of my friends who know my long standing history with this girl know that I never deep down let my feelings for her go away and they even welcomed the idea (or at least they said it, doesn't mean they meant it) that maybe we should date one day. It's kind of left me completely confused. I would rather not talk to her about this situation only because I wouldn't want to strain our already solid friendship as being just best mates (how English of me). I think realistically I need to just re-examine the situation. I plan to continue to try and meet girls at school and I can't let something like this necessarily get in the way. I am not going to let opportunities fly past me based on a what if scenario that could possibly not happen, even though I would welcome the opportunity with open arms. But, as I so frequently say anymore, I digress.
I've been writing more and more now and I think I got some good solid editorials waiting in the wings for the targum this semester. I'm gonna try and make this blog more frequent and maybe jazz it up a bit with some pictures and bumper stickers and shit. Anywho I close with giving a list of the top ten most played songs on my Ipod this week:
1) Mott the Hoople- Walking With A Mountain
2) Spoon- Don't Make Me A Target
3) MGMT- Time to Pretend
4) MIA- Bird Flu
5) The Zombies- This Will Be Our Year
6) Paul McCartney- All Things Must Pass (George Harrison cover)
7) ELO- Showdown
8) The Move- Fire Brigade
9) Rilo Kiley- Portions for Foxes
10) Oasis- Don't Look Back in Anger
Sunday, January 11, 2009
A Bit of Narcassism
Okay so I am not finishing my top ten albums of 2008 because I have just run out of steam talking about the music i have been yapping about for the past year. Let's talk about me, about life, and basically do what the blog of 20 year old journalism major at Rutgers should be for.
Damn winter break was fast! Not to say it wasn't enjoyable but damn just like every new year that comes, time just speeds the hell and doesn't slow down. I go back to school next Monday and I am looking forward to it but at the same time dreading it just simply because it is school. I have also learned based on that notion that I am not the rah rah Rutgers student that everyone else at school is. I love my school and everything it offers me but to say that I eat sleep and breathe the school is far from the truth. I'm not gonna be one of those guys who twenty five years from now long after I have graduated that is going to donate a shitload of money each year to the school. We already have enough money and see where that has gotten us, a fucking' expansion on our football stadium for our mediocre team. Sure we made it to a bowl game this winter but so did every other NCAA football team for god sakes! But i digress, back to the basics of the day.
The weekend was pretty fast, spent watching allot of football and getting a bit woozy with my friends. Spent time with my mother who haven't really hung out with alot since we got back from our vacation which is sad since I saw her everyday on vacation and our relationship grew so much better then it had been. Never the less she still has a full week to see me before I head back and i will most likely be home on numerous weekends again.
I saw Frost/Nixon today, single handidly one of the best movies I have ever seen and I think I am going to write a full review about it this week as well as talk about some of my life realizations that I have discovered over this break about love, friendship, and advancing myself as a good human being. I am also writing some articles already for the first issue of the inside beat for the semester. They actually gave me a bi weekly review column in which I profile a classic album that I know probably a lot of people have not paid attention to minus die hard music lovers and critics. I'm also going to the New York city comic con in three weeks and I can't fucking wait! I'm hoping the beat will let me cover it as a front page story, that would be sweet! Off to bed, ciao.
Damn winter break was fast! Not to say it wasn't enjoyable but damn just like every new year that comes, time just speeds the hell and doesn't slow down. I go back to school next Monday and I am looking forward to it but at the same time dreading it just simply because it is school. I have also learned based on that notion that I am not the rah rah Rutgers student that everyone else at school is. I love my school and everything it offers me but to say that I eat sleep and breathe the school is far from the truth. I'm not gonna be one of those guys who twenty five years from now long after I have graduated that is going to donate a shitload of money each year to the school. We already have enough money and see where that has gotten us, a fucking' expansion on our football stadium for our mediocre team. Sure we made it to a bowl game this winter but so did every other NCAA football team for god sakes! But i digress, back to the basics of the day.
The weekend was pretty fast, spent watching allot of football and getting a bit woozy with my friends. Spent time with my mother who haven't really hung out with alot since we got back from our vacation which is sad since I saw her everyday on vacation and our relationship grew so much better then it had been. Never the less she still has a full week to see me before I head back and i will most likely be home on numerous weekends again.
I saw Frost/Nixon today, single handidly one of the best movies I have ever seen and I think I am going to write a full review about it this week as well as talk about some of my life realizations that I have discovered over this break about love, friendship, and advancing myself as a good human being. I am also writing some articles already for the first issue of the inside beat for the semester. They actually gave me a bi weekly review column in which I profile a classic album that I know probably a lot of people have not paid attention to minus die hard music lovers and critics. I'm also going to the New York city comic con in three weeks and I can't fucking wait! I'm hoping the beat will let me cover it as a front page story, that would be sweet! Off to bed, ciao.
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